CoachBri’s Blog

Here in Denver the air was thin and clean, the sun was warm and penetrating. In the morning I walked along the tireless river.  There were many ducks busy feeding and doing their daily activities. They all seemed to share the river and what she offered them. Larger birds seemed to be aware of other large birds and they would stop eating when they swam near each other. The smaller birds were no threat to the larger ones and went unheeded. Occasionally a small piece of paper floated down and was inspected by a mallard duck, which seemed to know something about these floating prospects. It would explore them with its flat bill and toss them about, picking at their contents. Everything that happened on the wide, shared river had meaning to its inhabitants and they all seemed to get along fine.

Human beings forever have been hurt by the tremendous influence of professionals in the area of their own development. Not able to ask deep, profound questions that are not the response of pressure from the outside or inside, human beings have lost touch with the own movement towards their gifts and inclinations.  We have sought, in our confusion and reaction to such a violent world of conformity and corruption, a state of mind that wants unshakable faith or some supernatural power to bring meaning and purpose to our lives.

Faith is the cultivation of minds that are deeply caught in their own self-centered pursuit.  They want this faith to be unshakable and whomever challenges it is seen as doing something sacrilegious. The faithful minded are always rooted in their belief, and security is their narcissism. To be free of the past influences with regards to our own life journey is to have doubt as a cornerstone of all religious endeavors.  Without doubt, any inquiry into anything will only lead one back to one’s own distortions and one clings to one’s distortion like a burr on a piece of wool. Only in seeing how one is so deeply affected by the professionals, who project an image of smartness and status, can one ever arrive at truth. Truth is the thing that brings freedom and that freedom means insecurity and a deep sense of energy that faces the unknown without anxiety. The deeper one’s faith, the greater the anxiety.  All anxiety is a mind caught in the past, trying to secure the future.

The sun and its glorious rays are soon covered by the clouds.  Off in the distance the silhouette of the mountains appears.  In the late afternoon the warmth of the sun dissipates and soon the game will start and I will enter a whole set of different illusions.

Coachbri

In our last session we discussed how thought plays such a large roll in creating and maintaining our problems.   You were very clear about this regarding fear of death. I can’t seem to remember what it was you said but it did scare the crap out of me! Now things keep coming back to me that we discussed.

Thinking is always on the move, looking to keep itself alive through activity. Thinking about something is thought’s occupation. It is always moving and when one watches or pays attention to thought it slows down. When one gives one’s whole attention to thought it ceases. It is like when you are in a car crash and things seem to happen in slow motion. Most of us only know the release from thought through some activity, competition, or adrenaline rush. If one uses concentration to quiet thought, it is freedom from and therefore a process of exclusion. Thought doesn’t want to end, and its primary directive is to find in some religious, political, or personal belief a place where it is permanent and secure. Thought creates all kinds of beliefs and material processes because it is itself a material process.

The chemical nature of thought is moving in an irrational pattern when it is used beyond the technical boundaries of its intended function. Where human relationship is concerned thinking is a mess. It creates groups of people and the illusion that we are separate beings in separate lands. Thought has created all the psychological problems of disconnection, fear, jealousy, hatred, greed, loneliness etc. Thought also creates the external psychology that most people practice to deal with there disconnected state only inflicting more damage and disconnection.  Thought creates the problem of disconnection and then tries to be the remedy to change it. You can’t use cancer to kill a cancer without creating the same result.

Our greatest challenge as human beings is to question everything that thought creates to make us better people, more loving etc. Thought is a movement that is caught in time.  Fear, jealousy, greed, and hatred are products of time because they are things we learn. Love and compassion are not the rooted in thought. They are another movement that is truly internal. Self is fear, jealousy, greed, hatred and is put into you by others. Where these are, love and compassion are not. To love another and reject someone else is not love.
Death is the ending of self and self is terrified of it own ending.  In the ending of thought one is no longer seeing through the eyes of time and one’s own limits. Then one is free and what is free is not held in the confines of death.

Coach bri

Human behavior is always looking for some means to an end. We are always wanting something and therefore we crave experience. The rich are tired and bored with their lives, and the poor are tired just trying to get enough to eat. Somewhere in all of this, loneliness is shared by all. The rich crave the most rare experiences, and set it as a status symbol, thinking that in that experience loneliness will be no longer. But soon after that outlandish experience, they are back again in their loneliness. The poor, being limited by poverty, ruthlessly seek spiritual experience as a means to cover up their loneliness. What is the cause of the loneliness we feel so deep in our hearts? Why are there so many people that suffer from it and are even controlled by it? They are often terrified to be alone.

It is interesting to know that the word ‘alone’ in the dictionary means ‘all one’. So the feeling of aloneness and the emotion of loneliness are two different things. Loneliness is a state in the brain aroused by thought. It is the state in which we crave experience. Human beings think that making experience better, more, wider, deeper, or faster, they will be able to kill or get rid of this feeling of emptiness which loneliness arises out of. We don’t seem to look deeper and see that experience is a self-centered movement; it makes for the strengthening the very center of the ego itself, which is who and what we have become. A human being, ambitious for spiritual experience, is no different than a human being seeking to be a millionaire or billionaire. Both are ruthless and self-serving, committed to something or some image that thought has put together.

By the very nature of the self-centered process, we cripple our relationships with each other, creating our own isolation. Experience is the building block of the self at its fundamental core. We have all been conditioned to live from that core and object to any other way of living. Human beings create the state of loneliness by addicting to experience, by the seeking of pleasure. Is not the promise of pleasure to give one experiences that feed the senses? This short period of time of sensual bliss soon gives rise to the feeling of being without, and one feels a sense of the void within. The void within, the center of the ego, craves a new experience to cover up the pain it is in. Pain is the source of all one’s appetites. When we feed this machinery, created by thought through experience, we waste our energy on superficial, meaningless activity and move closer to being more machine-like than human.

Each person is looking for a state of mind where all conflict has come to an end, where there is this sense of peace. Peace is not the absence of war. Peace is a movement of perception, which has nothing to so with thinking. It is, in itself, love in action without motive. In order for this state to come about, the very center of sensation must come to an end. Sensation, without a center, is pure and uncontaminated. With a center there is direction, motive, and experience that is full of pleasure or pain. Awareness of the whole movement of thought and all its tricks can set human beings on a different path. Only in that pure attention and observation can the core of self be dismantled. When pleasure and pain are seen for what they are, then the human being understands the peace of no self. Then one is free from motive, choice, and craving.

Living a life acquiring pleasure is to live a life of conflict. In conflict we create our own misery. This misery is the cycle of External Control Psychology. We identify with religion, money, position, and associate with people and organizations to cover up our deep sense of emptiness. When this doesn’t work we crave conflict to reinforce our own self-centeredness. This gives us the feeling we are alive by breeding the energy of conflict. The energy of conflict is the source of external control because it will go to any length to have power over other people. External control is creating images through experience and when that experience is painful, we blame the other for the image we have created about them, ourselves, and or the situation.

Very few people care about reaching their potential. That potential is the striping away of all the things that thought has convinced us are important and valuable. True value can only be established when one is free from all wanting. Then the need to understand is more important than the words you use, which is relationship.

Coach bri