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I have been fortunate to just spend a weekend with Brian, one on one. We drove from Toronto to Erie Pennsylvania, to watch his son play hockey. So while we drove, we talked. I explained that I needed to talk to him because I was miserable. I didn't like my job, my dad, my wife, and my life. I wasn't happy. My overall attitude was I just don't give a shit. I was afraid, that due to seventeen years of ulcerative colitis, I would develop cancer and be dead in a few years. I mourned the past, and feared dying. What a waste of time. But time isn't important, life is. What a waste of life.
My parents were not supportive of my dreams after high school. I was told I was going to cooking school instead of art school. About a month after starting cooking school, I developed colitis. Brian asked if somehow I may have chosen my colitis. To get out of something that I didn't want to? To get sympathy? So people would go easy on me? God dammit that is exactly what I am doing. Is it working? No. Am I slowly killing myself? Yes. So what should I do? Maybe I should start living my life. Listen to my emotions. Trust myself. Accept the fact that I am a complete asshole for blaming others for my crappy life. And that I should see that my life isn't that crappy at all.
Anyway, I'm not an avid writer so I'll leave it at that. There is so much to talk about so I will write some more soon.
Thanks,
John
2:05 pm Apr 07, 2009
Rich VanHuuizen
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Level 5, Human Potential Plus Internal Psychology Training.
I can say, without a doubt, that the weekends I spend with Brian doing the training are the highest quality weekends in my life. I look forward to these trainings and leave feeling absolutely fantastic for several reasons. 1) I know that the things that I uncover about my life and my own behaviours will shine a light on why I am where I am. 2) I always gain a deeper understand of how I sabotage the relationships in my life that are most important. 3) Through challenging and breakthrough role plays, I always learn something new about how to better access my own skills of connecting with people in the moment. 4) A hilarious jolt of humour is doused on everyone throughout the weekend when we all discover that, although we think we are different than everyone else, we are all the same. We are simply trying to meet our own needs and ridiculously poor at negotiating those needs with those we live with. 5) Brian. A man who sees things clearly. Who expects everyone to seek out what is true for them rather than simply listening to him speak. A great self-evaluator who sees the importance of showing his own weaknesses and vulnerability to the group. A man with the biggest heart.
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