One of our deepest psychological problems is that we cannot face ourselves the way we are. We refuse to see how our consciousness is in such a deep disturbing mess. We all basically know that because we are aware of the contradictions that exist in us. We want to be fit and trim yet we overeat and don’t exercise, or we exercise like a fanatic and eat all the foods that maintain our insulin levels high and therefore we gain weight. We smoke, we drink and we want to stop smoking or stop drinking, or we see ourselves being angry, violent, hurtful, hateful, and we want to be the opposite of what we are.

Our consciousness is in great trouble. We are so deeply disturbed because we see ourselves as individuals and take refuge in being an individual, when really, if you look deeply at it, we’re not individuals at all. The formation of our psychology, mainly external control, has all been imposed from the outside. If you ask yourself who you are, you can examine for yourself — you are who you believe you are and all of your beliefs have been imposed first from the outside and then you modify them inwardly.

You’re sitting in a room right now listening to me talk but you see yourself as the center of the room and everything around you physically is imposed by the distance from you to get in you, as every brain in the room is doing. Every brain in this room suffers from exactly the same psychological problems that every other brain in the room is suffering from and we’re not talking about it, we cover it up. Why do we cover it up? What’s the point in keeping it covered up? Because in so doing you get to hang on to your individuality or, to put it better, the illusion of your individuality.

Can we look a little deeper at this? Are you willing to look or are you already terrified by me because I’m not offering you anything? Part of our external psychology conditioning is that we have to do something to get something and if we don’t get something from what we’re doing then what we’re doing is useless, and how many of us want to be useless? Every person in the room is afraid to be useless. For every person in the room, the prime occupation of your life is finding a sense of psychological security and the past thousand generations of human beings that has been their occupation. If I am born in Russia, America, or Canada, the operation of my brain is exactly the same as it is in any one of these areas in the world. I don’t know if you see this. Most of you are terrified to look anew.

Years ago tribes clubbed themselves to death because of their different beliefs with bones, sticks, stones, and arrows. Today we do exactly the same thing but the tribes are now countries and the interest of the tribe is now the interest of the nation; the tribe who was aggressive and bullied and conquered other tribes is today the nation bullying and conquering other nations to satisfy their self-interests. Yes, their self-interest and that is the poison of each one of us in this room today. We are looking out for our own self-interest and that is why we see ourselves as Canadians, Americans, Russians, Germans, Christians, Hindus, Muslims, or Jews. We have all bought into that sickness and that sickness is the antichrist.

I am not selling religion. I have no religious or political affiliations. Anything that brings about a division between you and another is a poison in your consciousness that feeds your belief system and you then identify who you are with your belief system and because of that belief system your whole psychology comes out of that. And that psychology is the psychology of external control and how that psychology was formed is the same for every brain in this world. Every brain in this room took information in through their senses. If I was born in Russia, United States, or New Zealand, I took information into my senses. That information was my experience and that experience formed my memory, which became my knowledge. From there I then again experience that knowledge as a collection of images created by the process of thinking. And that is what we have bought into – you really believe you are your thinking. You really believe that what thought says about you and about others is true. You have bought into that you are Muslim or Jewish or Christian. You have bought into that you are American, Canadian, or Russian but you are not. We are one people, one planet, and the brotherhood of mankind. All those religions, all those political differences, all of those divisions of nationality, and all of their traditions are the very poison in your consciousness that keeps you as a separate entity and me as a separate entity that leads to war, that leads to the practice of external psychology, that poisons and is destroying this world. Every brain in the room is practicing it. External psychology is the psychology of the ignorant, the psychology of corruption and unless each one of us investigates the external psychology conditioning we have and brings about an end to it, your world, my world, the world will never live in peace. We will never know love; we will never know what it means to be loved.

We think we are individuals because we identify who we are with the things of thinking and every brain in the room does it, so how can we be individuals? It’s like taking a whole bunch of glasses and filling them with different colored water and saying all of these glasses are unique. In all of these glasses the content is unique but the difference is so superficial or simply a different color. Do you know what gives something its color? What it reflects. Things are the color blue or yellow or green because that object absorbs all the other colors except the color and it gives it off. That is why something is its color. So by analogy you will have absorbed a tremendous amount of someone else’s knowledge that you got from the outside and you claim to be you.

The most learned people in the world, with all their PhD’s, being well read, are masters at accumulating knowledge and that knowledge is absolutely useless for a human being to reach his or her potential. If you have all the knowledge in the world and know nothing of love you are nothing more than a learned ignoramus and you will corrupt everything you touch. External psychology is practiced in many ways but you know that your self is the construction of this external psychology. This self, which is you, is full of psychological suffering. In every situation the dominant need of this self is to be secure psychologically and because each person that makes up a tribe or nation is doing it, it identifies with that tribe or nation and because of its identity is willing to see itself as different than another nation and then it’s willing to kill to protect what it is at any cost and divide and conquer. This basically means do things my way or else! And that’s how most of us live.

This self-consciousness has a primary belief that somewhere in it there’s this spiritual element, this higher self, this godly creature, and because it cannot solve one of its psychological problems, it creates the illusion that somewhere in it there is a spiritual being or somewhere outside of it there’s a spiritual being. All the religions have this because self does not want to take responsibility for how distorted and messed up it truly is so it has invented a supreme being and all kinds of illusions so that that self doesn’t have to come to an end. Self is terrified of its own death and that is another commonality in this room: we are terrified of death. So for individuals, how do we use how we individual we are when we suffer from the fear of death? This self, with its external psychology, when it is in a situation with another human being in a so-called relationship and is unhappy, it always says it’s the other person’s fault. It always tries to find fault when it’s unhappy with someone or something outside itself. I’m sure we’re all doing that in this room too, aren’t we?

If you’ve been listening to this conversation that I’m having with you and you are disturbed by anything that I’m saying you’re going to blame me for that disturbance. That’s what we do. We never, when disturbed, go inside and look and see the source of that disturbance is and are passionate about. Only then can we end that conflict between me and you because that means you have to be responsible. The self, as it is when it’s disturbed in relationship with other human beings, then says I’m disturbed or I’m bothered and I’d be less bothered if you would change. So when we feel bothered we’re all about blaming the other person and then we want them to change when we’re the ones that feel hurt or miserable.

It is another human conundrum that what happy people evaluate is other people while happy people self-evaluate. Another part of ourselves that supposedly is individual, but it’s going on in every single one of us, is in human relationship when we enter conflict, often the source of that conflict is the simple fact that self really believes it knows what’s best for other people. You can see this clearly when two people supposedly fall in love, get together, hook up whatever, and in that process they really think they begin to know what’s best for the other person and they inflict this belief on them. We even have a term for it in marriage – we say “the honeymoon’s over”. It’s a simple fact that as we go through our lives – as teenagers we start to want to listen to our own kind of music, wear the clothes we want to wear, hangout with who we want to hang out with. You basically know what’s best but then soon, into our young adulthood, we start knowing what’s best for other people and we impose it on the other and the relationship falls apart, the marriage falls apart, the relationship between the teacher and the students fall apart, just because of that condition.

Then what follows, which is probably the most destructive condition, is the psychology of identity – identifying yourself with the house you own, the money in your bank account, your religion, your girlfriend or boyfriend or husband or wife, the ring on your finger, the car you drive, or the computer you have, defining who you are with the things of the outside. In the same way, you don’t see you are the faith in religion you have because you’ve been conditioned that way, you got that from the outside and yes, it seems like an internal movement but it’s not an internal movement. It’s a movement from the outside in and because it’s from the outside in and everyone’s doing it, it’s bringing about a tremendous fragmentation within our lives that always ends up in conflict.

There we are, living in a small little corner in our brain, practicing the habits of external control. Whenever this entity we identify with and which forms ourselves doesn’t get its way, the first thing it does is usually criticize other people. Yes, we’re even told that there is such a thing as constructive criticism, a very sophisticated intellectual approach to the problem. When I ask people, “When’s the last time someone was giving you some of their constructive criticism and you said to him that that was really fantastic, thanks a lot, I feel really good about myself now and you really opened up my life for me, I’ve seen the light?” When the self doesn’t get its way and external psychology is practiced it often humiliates to control. Another habit that it does is guilt people. And still another habit of external control psychology is punishing people and believe me, if punishment worked our criminal institutions would be empty! And these institutions are composed of over ninety percent repeat offenders! A lot of very intelligent people have learned the art of rewarding to control people. We could call them bribes perhaps. I’ve seen many intellectual programs use the reward system and what happens is people like the rewards but end up hating the rewarder and eventually the rewards don’t work in the business world and they become out of control and the employees hate going to work because they feel the pressure of this carrot that’s being dangled in front of their face.

Our lives are full of external control psychology in our so-called relationships and you see how much how many people nag a person or complain. These external control habits also destroy the very structure of relationship. When we go little a deeper with this and we look at the present state of the world, we now have a new Nazism and that Nazism is the brainwashing that’s going on in our schools and our families. The source of this is the external control that’s being practiced is psychiatry with the use of psychotropic medication. If I have cancer and I go to England, Ireland, Scotland, America, or India they can do a physiological test and they will see that I have cancer. But if I am unsettled inside myself because inwardly this external psychology is being practiced on me, and in my relationships, and I don’t have any good, loving, caring relationships, so inwardly I can’t focus at school. Therefore I can’t get along with people because I’m too emotionally torn up and I have a mental illness the psychiatrists call ADHD. If I’m so disturbed inside emotionally and beat up from the pressures of external control, and I don’t trust the adults anymore in my life, and I don’t give them authority in my life out of my own intelligence because I know how whacked out they are, then I get labeled with oppositional disorder. When you look up the definition of oppositional disorder, it basically means somebody who doesn’t like to be told what to do. And if I’m sensitive by nature and hurt and wounded and can’t find the love and care that I need in the environments I’m in because of my sensitivity, my brain goes into a creative state where I will invent people and worlds and voices that I talk to because my life is a living hell and these people we call schizophrenics or bipolar, another made-up illness by pharmaceutical companies with psychiatrists that are the next Gestapo.

Being on the psychotropic medications takes away a person’s ability to feel and when you take away a human being’s ability to feel you take away their creativity and therefore you’re taking away their humanity. And now we are creating generations of human beings that have no sense of morals, no sense of psychological pain who are able to inflict pain on others without any sense of remorse. And the reason being is that these pharmaceutical chemicals are getting into our genes and doing a tremendous amount of damage.

You can easily see that you have a creative system when somebody like a friend of yours in a situation in which you are so utterly embarrassed because of what they said to you or did to you that you cannot think of a comeback. You’re like a deer in the headlights of a car and you don’t know which way to move, you’re completely blindsided and when the human brain has felt that type of challenge, eventually, when you’re walking home, or after you sleep on it, what comes to your mind is the perfect retort. That is your creative system, and these drug companies and psychiatrists are taking it away from you and we’re letting them.

External psychology sees itself as the center of the universe and by living in and through that psychology we never reach our potential as human beings because there is a different psychology and the world knows this. The difficulty is that everyone is trying to get to that internal psychology through the already existing external path thinking has created. This external psychology thinking is responsible for this external psychology and thinking thinks it can think its way out of it. That’s why the self is always looking for some type of experience, isn’t it? Some religious experience, some noble experience, some enlightening experience, because self is always after experience because experience is the only thing that self knows. It doesn’t see that the experiencer is in the experience — it doesn’t see that self is anger, self is theater, there’s no me separate from fear – I is fear, I is hurt. But I/self is always trying to bring about a division between what it actually is and what it feels, therefore it thinks it can think its way out of its problem, but it can’t. Thinking is a limited thing, put together in time. Please just think of this for a second. You learn the alphabet through time, you learn the sounds over time, and you learn letters and words over time. Everything that’s put in to you all— the religions are formed by words, which are all products of time past, present, future. It’s all thinking put together by time, itself is a product of time. That’s why self has difficulty with death because death is the unknown and self is the known and if our minds are not free of the known, we can never touch something deeper and richer, which is real intelligence, love, and compassion. Most of us have only bleeps of that in our life and then self moves in and says “I hope for more of those movements” and the very essence of hope is again hope to change self, which is again a product of time because hope is always the future.

I’m getting a signal that we’re almost out of time so I want to be able to wrap up this conversation. There is a movement deeper and richer than the movement of self and time in the brain. That movement cannot come about by practicing any method that thought has put together, be it yoga, meditation of the East or the West, Bach flower remedies, gems, psychoanalysis, all of these things that are systems, are all put together by thought. But what was put together by thought cannot lead you out of thought; it only strengthens thought.

I am not a Christian but I believe there are things in all the great religions, when you separate all the man-made garbage in them, which are pointing to truth. Religions are not a path to truth because there is no path to truth; there can’t be a path to a living thing because it’s always moving. Christ has made the statement that before time was I AM. I believe he was pointing to a movement outside the field of time, a completely different consciousness that is free of all experience. We cannot think ourselves to this consciousness but what we can do is end this self-consciousness, this external psychology that is crippling us and harms every relationship we practice it in. This may be of use to you or it may not be, I apologize for my ignorance!
Thank you.

Please, if you don’t mind, don’t clap. I haven’t come here to talk with you to entertain you. This is a serious matter and a deeply profound matter, something to wake up to the tragedy and ignorance of our lives. Very few people are interested and you’ll quickly make this into some entertainment because at any moment the wolf that is the to self will devour the lamb.

Coach Bri

more information at http://www.ccnm.edu/ce_course/4949/counselling_and_art_healing_march_31_april_1_2012

My team just returned from the Ontario AA Provincials as Champions!!

Despite going in as #1 seed we suffered many challenges through the round robin and almost missed the semis.

With the help of your teachings the athletes and coaches cut the nonsense and got back to being the great team they are powering through championship day and emerging as victors.

We will represent Ontario at Nationals. The difference really is “between the ears” once athletes reach the elite level. Proven once again.

Ron Vermeltfoort

Head Coach

Team Ontario Junior AA Ringette

She arrived early and walked quickly to the cabin. It was late afternoon and the sun was warm and hot on my face as it had been a mild winter and February felt more like April.  She fell into my arms as she arrived for her counseling. She started to cry.

Thanks for seeing me. I need to talk with you as no one else fuckin’ listens to me. I am lost and I want to know why people are so mean.

Can you tell me what happened that you feel this way?

The last time I was here we talked a lot about how we are conditioned to make problems for ourselves. I guess I thought when I left I didn’t see what you were saying until yesterday.

Okay. What happened?

My mother, as you know, is always shit-faced when I come home and I’m scared of her boyfriend as he’s always yelling at me for everything my mom does or doesn’t do so I have to be careful.  Yesterday I needed my mom to sign my report card.  When I gave it her she freaked out and starting yelling at me because I was late sixteen times this semester. Because of fucking her!! Can you believe this bullshit, I’m a fucking B+ student and she sees sixteen lates because I have to get her cleaned up or into bed before I leave to go to school!!

At this point the girl was barely able to talk. With deep sighs and weary sobs she lifted her hands to her face and tried once again to dry her tears and become tough. With fanatic sweeps of her hands across her eyes, she slowly pulled her self together and from somewhere this tough sad teenager hid her pain from the world.

With tears streaming down my face I said:

You know you don’t have to do that here!

In a tough voice older voice she replied:

Do what?

Get tough on me and hide the pain!

It’s what I have to do to get through this fucking shit hole bitch of a life I have.

Well, there are other ways!

Not in my life! I just want out of it all!

How out?

My house, my school, my boyfriend!

You’re not thinking of hurting yourself in any way?

No I can’t afford to.  I have a plan Bri – I told you that before!

Yes, I know but I have to ask.

Why?

Well I think you’re worth it! Gems like you don’t come along very often!

Some gem I am!

Hey don’t buy into their shit – it’s not yours!

Well it sure feels like it is. I don’t know how I’m going to get this year go to college and all that!

What’s all that?

My mom. Who will look after her when I’m gone?

I don’t know but if you don’t go, what do you think is going to happen to you?

I will end up dead or fucking joining her I guess. They say misery loves company!

Okay you’re right! But how do you feel being in her misery?

What do you mean!

You’re the child here. You never asked for this. It came to you and you didn’t have any choices about your mother drinking or the boyfriend she chose.

Yeah so what? Sucks to be me! Tough fucking luck!

Hey, I don’t mind you feeling sorry for yourself! I am amazed that you even go to school never mind the B plus average! I told you – you’re a gem!!

Sure don’t feel like one!

If you don’t go to university will you ever find out?

I guess not!

I know your life is the shits! You’re not responsible for your mother or her latest live-in.  You’re responsible beyond your years and there is some good in all this!

Like what?

Well, you can be married and raise children and be there for them!

Yes I can but I’ll never find the right guy for me! They’re all a bunch of dumb shits with their dick alcoholics.

Wow! You feel that!

Yes and that’s one of the reasons why I’m here. When all this shit happened I went to talk to my boyfriend and he got pissed because he wanted to get laid and I wasn’t in the mood because I so upset. So he decided to get shit-faced and here I am again dealing with another alco-fuckin-holic.

I see. Wow. Tough week!

Now you tell me – how am I going to deal with all this shit? Guys want – everybody wants – to fuckin’ party and they all think their lives are great. They talk about all the stupid ass things they do and who is the biggest asshole that night and all have a great fuckin’ laugh. Now where am I going to meet or even find a guy that doesn’t drink, demand sex, or not be stoned? They don’t exist! They never have and never will because of peer pressure. If you don’t they fuck you up by cutting you out, you’re a nothing.

Well you may be right! But I knew a few in my day and I know a few now and yes they stay the same – they are not included. I was one and I wasn’t and it was hard but it was worth it! Very worth it.

Yeah, why?

I’m sitting here and you’re a gem! And I love what I do because there are people like you in it.

So you get off on helping me?

Look, as I said, I’m amazed you even go to school and I mean that! You are one tough girl! What you do day in and day out most people couldn’t. So my bets are with you. So a guy is going to see you for what you are and you’re going to succeed in anything you do if you can just keep yourself safe and keep your nose to the grindstone. You said to me when you came in here today that you see how everything is made into a problem. Can you tell me how you see that?

My report card –my mom looked for the negative and flipped out!

Why do you think she did that?

She’s just a mess!

Don’t excuse her! What do you think she chose that late record?

Because maybe she knows it’s her fault I’m late!

Okay. So?

So she did some self-evaluation and she didn’t like it and she took it out on me!

Great! So what does that mean?

She created her own problem and it really has nothing to do with me!

Yes and even though that hurts, and it does, who decides what is best for your mother?

She does!

Who decides what is best for you!

I do!

Can you change mom?

No!

Who can you change?

Me!

So who made your mom’s problem her problem?

Me! Me!

And when you do what happens to you?

I get caught and pulled in to all their shit!

Yes and if you let anyone determine your future but you, what do you think is going to be the outcome of your life?

I will be hurt!

How will that feel?

Shit awful!

Yes! So what do you need to do?

Come here see you!

That’s fine but I meant something else!

I know – stay my course until I change the course.

Do you want to change it?

No I can’t leave. I’d feel too guilty!

Okay. So?

Stay focused in what I want and do the things I must to get me what I want.

And?

See you when I need support!

Okay you got it!

Thanks.

Hey one more thing?

Yeah what?

You’re a gem! The best!

You’re nuts but I love you. Thanks.

“Di do”

Bye

Coach Bri

EMAIL 17 COMMENTS AVALANCHE Avs’ Ryan O’Reilly finds success through creativity POSTED:   02/15/2012 01:00:00 AM MST By Adrian Dater The Denver Post Ryan O’Reilly, center, found consistent success after asking his father, Brian, for some life lessons. John Leyba, The Denver Post When Ryan O’Reilly is performing his job as a hockey player, three tasks are foremost in his mind. The first: Breathe, master the breath. Second: Think, master the thought. Third: Use the first two to master the “creative situation.” If that sounds a little too touchy-feely, O’Reilly couldn’t care less. He is having too much success in this, his third NHL season, to doubt the mind-body methods his father, Brian — a “high performance” life coach — helped reinforce in him last summer. O’Reilly, 21, is the Avalanche’s leading scorer (15 goals, 26 assists) and has been their best player this season. His performance has taken a quantum leap from his first two seasons, during which he had plenty of good moments but never found that consistent high level. Many in the game believe he will receive consideration for the Frank J. Selke Award honoring the best defensive forward. O’Reilly credits his growth to last summer when he went to his father and asked, “What do I have to do to get a lot better?” “I didn’t want to be known as just a defensive player, a third-line checking guy,” O’Reilly said. “I started to learn how to be more creative, to have that confidence in myself and to enjoy being creative with the puck and having the puck.” To Brian O’Reilly, who works with people from all walks of life at his company, Human Potential Plus in Ontario, getting into the “creative zone” is contingent not just on the individual self. To really succeed, in any aspect of life and be truly happy, he said, a person must relate well to others. “The No. 1 thing I believe in is relationships,” he said in a phone interview. “What I do is I create a group in the summer, and I show people how their relationships will determine their creative system. When you’re in the doghouse with your wife, your life becomes full of misery. “What happens is, you are at the effect of being away from the person you love the most. What I do is, I go in and I teach them that self-evaluation is one of the only tools we have that creates a level of effectiveness to be able to get into our creative system. What so many people who are miserable do is, they go and evaluate other people and make it worse.” In other words, they pass the buck for failure. The key, he said, is working harder with teammates, or your boss, or your spouse, to understand what you can do to make things better. In pro sports, Brian O’Reilly is frustrated by what he sees as too much of a finger-pointing culture in which players operate out of fear and coaches and general managers fail to create a culture of accountability so that growth can occur. “It takes a very serious coach or GM to realize the environment is everything,” said Brian O’Reilly, 47. “It’s not what we do, it’s how we do what we do. When they see you have their best interests in mind, they will give what you want. You can’t buy their creativity and their passion. Coaches are shooting themselves in the foot all the time because there is less accountability in an adversarial relationship, because everyone is passing the buck.” When player’s or other person’s needs are met — through caring teammates, friends, family — only then can he get into his true “creative zone” and prosper, he said. Brian O’Reilly never wanted to be a pushy father, but when his son came asking for help last summer, his first command was: “Don’t give me what you’re good at. Find your weakness, and let’s exploit it. Then let’s make the mental and physical connections and be accountable for our weaknesses.” Ryan said he learned how to calm down in the moment, especially when carrying the puck in traffic. “Your breath becomes shallower. You’re more calm,” he said. “You learn that there’s a real knack for remaining calm. I think when I got the puck before, I would panic with it and make stupid mistakes.” O’Reilly grew up with many foster kids at his house, as his parents worked in social care. Building relationships with others came easily to him as a result, and that explains why he is hugely popular with teammates and considered a likely captain someday. “He’s still so young, but he’s way more mature than his years,” Avs center Paul Stastny said. “He’s just getting better and better, playing the way he wants to now.” Brian O’Reilly said he watches most of his son’s games. An older son, Cal, plays for the Pittsburgh Penguins. Brian remains reluctant to offer any life coaching help unless his sons ask. “After a win is only when (Ryan) will call,” Brian said. “After a loss, he’s too mad. He’s hard on himself, but kind. I love that about my kids. They’re kind. I couldn’t care less about whether he plays hockey or not. When you hold them accountable with love, they realize what they do matters.” Adrian Dater: 303-954-1360 or adater@denverpost.com

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He was old beyond his years, and his eyes rarely looked into mine. When they did he seemed somewhat repulsed by something in me, or what he thought in himself.

I don’t really know why I come here. I seem to last a bit after I have opened up to you and what you speak from seems to bring some inspiration or strength or maybe, as you say, insight. I want you to know that when I talk about you I always put you down. I talk bad about you and I dare not let anyone know that I see you, as I would be ashamed. Half of my thoughts are your thoughts except that I don’t live into them as you do. I really am only interested in my self, my own sense of peace. I want others to see me as a great man when I am only a tiny fish in an ocean of men that is unnoticed. My image of my self is all-important. Why don’t you stop me!! I hate the way you listen. It seems like the more I speak, the more foolish I am. Can you please say something about all this!

What do you want me to say?

I don’t know. Your listening cut into me and I feel as if you are the one making a fool of me!

Sir I am sorry but you are doing that all on your own! We are all fools sir, each one of us, but we think we are a little less foolish than some other guy!

How are you foolish then?

I have a conditioned mind looking for security. Because of that deep unconscious drive to be secure I have attached my self to my self. My images, my ideas, my knowledge, my dreams, my wife, my children, and the process goes on and on. Me me me!

Well I am that too.

Yes sir we all are that – being secure inwardly is more important than anything else. So our ego, which is our self, refuses to see that every part of it, from thought to thought, little or big, is caught in a state of complete disorder. This program called self is like a software program full of viruses. It is a program that has created itself and the viruses and it is always trying to write a program that will run and be perfectly secure.

Yes I see that!

Not being able to see that the program, self is corrupted, and it tries to bring order into itself by writing another program to fix itself. It has done this all through history.

How so?

Religion is one of these programs, yoga another, mindfulness practice, tarot cards, Zenga, Zen, crystals, dance, so called meditation, and so many other things.

I have never thought of it that way! So why do we do this?

Because in them we are looking for security!

What is wrong with that?

Nothing, but it can’t work.

Why not? Who are you to say?

Sir, how long has humankind had all these systems put together by the program called self?

Thousands of years I guess.

Yes, so what good are they?

We are slowly getting better!

Do you go to these religions sir?

Yes!

Are you getting better as you age and use these things?

Well no, I guess I don’t. I sure have tried a lot of them.

No sir sorry! What you mean to say is the program called your self, which is in pain suffering, anxiety, addicted to something, has tried to find the way out of all this madness. And what madness – attached to your wife, the pain of that, you bully he or she bullies you, conflict living up to each other’s images, the fight, the desire for sex, moodiness if you don’t get it. All of that, right sir?

Yeah, I get your point! But how do I stop it?

Sir, again, who is asking this question?

My self! I really want out!

Yes sir, you see you can’t. There is no way that the self that creates the problem can find a way out of the problem because it is the problem. Finding a way out of this misery to self is security and that is what all the religions and meditation groups are trying to do. They find a system or a method to get out of ego self. But every system and method is created by the ego self who is trying to be secure.

So what the hell am I supposed to do then?! I have insulted you, yelled at you, talked bad about you, no, hated you most of the time, and I really don’t want any one of my clients to come and see you yet I want to be like you. Why?

That is for you to answer sir, not me!

But the fact that I can tell you this and you don’t throw me out infuriates me.

Yes sir I know!

Why do you take my abuse?

I don’t sir; you are just speaking from your conditioned program, trying hard to get my program to respond to you. But your program is my program— we are not separate. The program likes to think it is an individual because it thinks there is some safety in that.

So we are not individuals then?!

We have different names, passports, cultures, but it is all one program, that thought has put together, just different ideas or thoughts but they’re all the creation of thinking.

So what do I do sir?! Tell me please! I see what you say and I feel I am in hell. I have addiction problems that I keep covered up! I fight with my wife, we have a happy marriage according to other people, but we treat each other badly and there is no deep connection, just occasional moments where we stop warring but we really don’t care about each other. I matter more to me that she will ever.

Yes sir we have no love, just empty words. Then something awakens us to the mess we are in inwardly. And that inward mess is why society is in such a mess! We then, out of our confusion, follow the same pattern as in technical thought and seek outside of our self for an authority.

God, right?

Yes sir God, the Holy Spirit, enlightenment, nirvana, self help books, etc

That is what we do!

Yes sir and now if you see all this and listen deeply to it, what happens?

I don’t know!

Yes sir you don’t and “I don’t know” means by removing all the falsity of thought, you are educating your mind to a different movement.

Well I want to experience that movement!

Sir you can only experience something that is part of thought. This other can’t be experienced and therefore can’t be corrupted. It is a movement not of time but free from time. All thought is the product of time!

This is so much for me!

Yes sir, that is why few people are interested in all of this. They would rather drink, drug, drink coffee, smoke etc.

When you bring in time, time is all I know.

It is all self knows and is! Therefore it is limited, caught in the web of time!

Thank you I must come again yet I know I will resent you later!

Find out sir it may be that the conditioning is so strong you hate yourself to keep the program going.

But I hate you!

Sir I don’t exist nor do you, it is only the program trying to hang on to itself. Just see it sir! Just see it.

Coach Bri

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