I Do Now!
She was friendly and helpful and a person that was well trained. She had a gift for making people feel at ease with the large intimidating machines. When you asked a question, she answered in a way that was programmed. If you asked a question, her response assumed that you were frightened of what was going on, so her answer was always superficial, direct and closed. As I asked other questions pertaining to her job, she became uneasy and businesslike. I lay in the machine and it took many pictures. The room was warm, quiet and very clinical. The hum of the machine with its clicks and jerking movements was like all machines – doing what they are intended to do regardless of what else is happening around them.
It is best to deal with the matters of the heart with a clear and still brain. If one is at all full of emotion on any level, it will get in the way of what one perceives. Then self is present and will prejudice everything according to its own wants and desires. Human beings need to be in touch with what we are doing as well as how we are doing it. Only in the space of attention can there be simplicity and order. Otherwise we function like the machine, unaware of what we are doing and how it impacts the environment at that given time.
After one hour and one picture I was done and the nurse came in and gave me my leave. I asked her another question for which she had a quick answer. Then I asked how she really thought and to that she replied, “We are not allowed to think here”. So I said, “What a pity, is it worth it to you?” “No one really cares anyway,” she said. “Well, at least you know one person who does!” She smiled and said, “Yeah, I do now!”
- coach bri